journey of faith.

life is really hard. not school life but life in general itself. sigh* so many pathways..so many decisions to make...im' really screwed. my path totally splits in two. one goes to london and the other stays at toronto. my dad's moving to seattle for one year and he's leaving next week or so... boi. how am i gonna survive all this? not seeing my dad for one year... man. most likely not cuz i have school and such and i cna't go durign march break cuz i have to visit stupid universities.. why is life so hard.. WHY OH WHY.... if im' gona miss my dad like crazy aft he leaves..what am i go onna do if i go to western....misss my entire family like crazy..i really dont' think i can survie that ... soo friggin hrad for everyone...my mom can't driveee far..therefore she wotn' drive me to londong every weekend..therefore i need to take railway..therefore i hardly will see my mom..and my dad.....but i really wanan go there....... REALLY..give up my dream for my family? i dunno. that's a very hard quesiton to answer...my mom and sister..will be leaving a lone and my dad's rite..i need to support them...wen he's gone... it's gonna be really hard for them too...i cant' be selfish.. i dotn' wanan be. i dunno waht to do. sigh* i guess i have 5 mmore months to think straight..this year is gonna be the SADDEST moments of my entire life....leaving high school...leaving uhs friends... leaving house... leaving family.. leaving my true identity.
bum me up.

posted by lois @ 11:36 PM